Trails...

Its said: Justice is usually delayed but seldom denied; Patience is a virtue; Trails results in triumps when faith and focus are kept. Despite these truths, it is no doubt challenging and at times you wish you can undo moments as so many "why's" still remain unanswered. But then again, who are we to decide when everything will be ok, when its usually untrue that "everythings always ok"! Perhaps sharing others' stories, and situation can provide relief to us, knowing that in this world we are never alone when "everythings not ok"!

Religion and Expectancy???

I grew up in an atmosphere of non-religious Hindu and Christian home. By non-religious I mean one that has a non-overly practicing Hindu and Christian parent. I grew up in a country that had only Christian and Muslim dominion.  To make matters complicated I became confused and tried “practicing” different religions at varied times, including the Muslim religion.

However, I am what I am today, and I believe, like many others, that there is God, and expectedly I still have greater inclination towards Christianity and Hinduism. As they say, one keeps learning all his/her life.

I was always fascinated by simple homes/families practicing one religion typical to them. I believe today too, have a similar faith with your partner, with your children helps in times of crisis, especially and more so now.

Perhaps that seed of fascination or let me call it a seed of expectancy, of choosing my “assumed” right way of life made me what I am today. Or probably what I am seeking to become one day.

Whatever I am today, I feel the word “expectancy” is what twirls relationships of every sort. As the modern age progresses with its globalization people tend to lose their cultural values. Perhaps “lose” is not the right word. People probably tend to “choose” the cultural values to keep and discard others. People have become more self centered, more aware of their happiness. It perhaps started with My Country, to My Society, to My Family and finally to Me.

And as it is with history, man has always somehow managed to overcome a changing situation.  He therefore becomes more self-reliant! A theory suggests, if I am self-reliant, I will not “need” anyone for anything, therefore I don’t expect anything from anyone. I may need someone to fulfill my needs, be it another human being, a pet, or even God.

This changing nature of people has also affected the so called “culture holding” religions. Where is the Greek religion heading to, where is Judaism. Where is the Jew. Even in Hindu religion, we know have an “eco-friendly Ganeshji”. Just like men and women are getting smarter, so is “their” religions. I wont be surprised to see Christianity “sell” very well in today’s time as well as Buddism since both are “assumed” easy religions.

In whatever case, change is inevitable and for those of us that value our teachings, may have to hold on to those teachings in our hearts till our final goodbye.

Believing is Receiving

Whatever things you ask when you pray, believe that you receive them, and you will have them. - (Mark 11:24)
If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. - (John 15:7)

Many times we pray hard, yet we don't get what we want, only to find out much later on that whatever happened, happened for the best. This is what the usual, more typical, stance say.

However, there are also those few that despite praying hard, and our prayers "not being answered" in the way we expected, tend NOT to realize much later on that whatever happened, happened for the best.

Hence, my two referenced biblical quotes above. There may be several postulates to this:

1. We haven't probably prayed hard enough....Well this does not go well with many as they don't want to hear this,

2. We prayed hard, but the decision we took, and thereafter pushed our decision to God to answer was wrong! Perhaps we weren't patient enough yielding to our worldly thoughts rather soon enough.


I feel faith and hope and patience go hand in hand.....The amount of faith you have, the same amount of hope you will have and therefore that much patience you will happily give...Many of us claim we have so much faith, yet in times of hope we fall dead short and we tend to hate people that remind us to have had a "bit more" patience.

I believe this to have been working for me, and I hope when I come out of my situation and I will be vindicated, so that I may be able to be an example of His grace in people that are probably passing through situations requiring faith, hope and patience in equal amounts....

Somethings are just not....

Somethings in life are just not meant to be...
At first they become evident and tell you of their being so in trivial things that dont matter...
You reflect, you ignore...
Then, they become evident on larger fronts...
You continue to reflect, you continue to ignore...
Lastly, they become evident in trivial matters that matter as differentiated from trivial matters that dont matter...
You reflect, you try to ignore but cannot seem to...

God above us has given us immense power of control, perceive, comprehend, with lessons in nature, freinds and family. We need to understand, recognize and make effective our such gift so that we are able to be in better control of our lives and be better examples of His grace.....

Forgiveness...

I have ended yet another day and watched it being undone again....
I tried all that I could...
Some blunders happened, and some absurdities crept in...
I try to forget them, forgive self and learn....
I, with sincerity, and with too high a spirit realize that tomorrow is a new day, and will begin it with the learned lessons of today....
May God protect us, forgive us our sins and we forgive our brethren...

Inspired from quote by: Ralph Waldo Emerson

I am trying, time!

I am hated for what I was and what I have probably become...
I may be loved for what I may never be...
I am a sum of my experiences and some of myself...
I have begun to understand that the world loves you the way it wants to see you...
Everything is therefore plastic!

Am I searching to hard for happiness?
I have always wished people well, or have I unknowingly not wished so?
I can change, cause time has changed, I must realize that values must change.

I envy them that are alone and happy.
How do they convince themselves of their peace, so pure so serene.
I let go to learn, yet I remain static but I feel time go past me yet I wait for I don't know what?

Take me with you dear time...
I am tired of keeping close ones unhappy...
I am trying wrong...
I am trying time....



I am trying time!

Silly Me....

Thoughts!!!
We are all victim of circumstances!
Despite our eluding them, there are millions of "what if's"!
Often times, what we are so adamant, or are egoistic about doing an act, experience makes us willingly do the act in another situation and time!
Its saddest when you find yourself in shoes of one you ignored, now being ignored yourself!
No one ask's for situations that will receive sympathy or pity, but then again experiences will take you down so much that you want some shoulder to cry on!
We try finding happiness in others whereas the happiness lies in us, dormant most of the time!
It's amazing how love can make a pauper feel like a king and the same love can make a king feel wretched!
I hate emotions. The more I try to run from it, beg to seek being unemotional, the more i sink into it!
The only way I can be at my best is when I am happy and that can only be if I know you are happy being with me!
I am happy when, selfishly, my emotional demands are met. Strangely I don't feel asking for emotional TLC is so much big a thing!
I wish I had the tape of my life so far, a scissors, a cello tape and time. I would have rewound my life, attempted FairPlay or worst off cut and throw away my past!
God is the most humane of us!