I will be back!

I WILL BE BACK!

I had always been impressed by several qualities of people.
What made them different in success, family, culture, and plenty yes-men!
I thought it was nothing more than a gift from God.

Despite it being true, it’s alas not complete in its entirety.

I realized attitude was the key to success in personal and professional life
I realized perseverance was the key to greatness as well
I realized faith and hard work was also a strong key to great achievements

I changed my attitude, persevered, strengthened my faith and toiled harder.

I became successful in my weltanschauung , and my friends; true success succeeds.

Trials came, I fought most, and I reluctantly ignored some.
More trials came, I fought some, and I deliberately ignored some more.
Much more trials came, I tried fighting all, and I was forced to ignore most.

I feel I ignored, cause I was restless in gaining more

Whenever, whatever I ignored, eventually became a lost success
I therefore lessened in my success rate, but I was still successful
More success lost, the lesser success I became, and from being successful to being there, to losing all became my forte.

I have come back to where I stood years back, slightly learned, slightly cautious, slightly same, and yet at times unnervingly alone. Also, I understand the pain of being ignored, hence I choose not to ignore and besides,

I still have
my success “story”,
my “reprimanding but there-for-me” family,
my renewed “not to ignore the little’s of life” culture,
and true (read “oft ignored, but still there-for-me) yes-men.
and now, the feeling that I was mostly right in my assessment.

Today, I want to continue with my attitude, perseverance, faith and hard work with the added pinch of experience of not ignoring trails to fate.

I will be back.
It is well.
It is better.

Hope in Mystery!

 I have been said all,
Good by bad people,
Bad by good people,

I have been loved, loathed
Loved by people I didn’t value,
Loathed by people I looked up to,

I have been called names,
That resonate resentment for exchange of care,
I have cared, at least in my own little way,
In exchange, I get devalued,
Perhaps I expect a lot.

I have switched places, quarters,
I have fought others’ battles,
While hoping they fight mine
I won theirs! I lost mine.
I have attempted battles in lands of the unknown,
But I didn’t lose hope, though I think my faith did wither,
That I didn’t consider.

It gets from grim to grave,
Yet what I find missing is your care,
Particularly when troubles dare,
Lonely do I feel when you ignore,
I feel I am alone beside the huge seashore.
I miss your “I will be there for you”
It now reverberate as “I don’t care for you”

I see pain in the hearts of my bloodline,
I see the sorrows gawp at me,
I am coming to help my history,
I have not lost hope in this mystery.

This hope is what gives me courage
To better the words you say to me
To upturn the inefficacies of my politeness
To make me deserve your care,
So that our branches flourish in the family tree

I have not lost hope in mystery
I have not lost hope in mystery…

Yet another beautiful day!

Oh what a beautiful day!

Waking up to the sound of light rain

To the aroma of wet sand

To the feel of soft wind

Reminiscing of happiness in the past, present and continued tense

Who says times moves, life moves?

Look,

This is the same moment that I met years ago.

It’s as if its come back to whisper good news

To tell me we are still with you

To tell me I am not alone

I tell them several things without saying them

As if I am speaking to my God

Knowing fully they speak back to me not only in understanding

But also in faith and hope

They tell me there was someone much earlier and before me

And there would be someone much later and after me

All of this is temporary, an illusion

That time actually has moved

I ask them for sharing my pain, happiness and moments

They say they would, in moments

But for the time being only,

As there are others out there

That needs to know,

That they are not alone and

That today is still a beautiful day!

Our Creation, Our Creator

Read a beautiful quote today:

“I would rather believe there is God and one day find out there isn’t any, than believe there isn’t any God only to find later that there is one”

Oftentimes, I myself get confused with the theory of civilization. Some say humanity is the best religion, other “grown up, mature believers of the universe” except it likewise. Others say there isn’t any such thing.

I think “man” intrinsically is a hallowed entity, always in need of gratification, compassion, and love. “Man” is bound to fail, at times severally, and therefore needs that avenue, that force, that incontestable anticipation, that all will be well. Whereas, technically speaking, all is actually well. It’s just a state of mind that we are in that defines our assumed circumstance.

Then again, there is this “I am born Christian, Muslim, Hindu, hence I follow Christ, Prophet Mohammed, or Lord Ram”, but not often do we compel ourselves in understanding the concept of religion.

Perhaps, some of us are plain “made that way” of accepting our environment as it came to us. I tend to feel differently. Perhaps again, I am not made that way!

I have been to the churches, the mosques, and various Hindu temples. I have even visited the Buddha temple. I find everyone similar, and some blind to nothingness. Unhappily, I also find some looking at me as someone who is in a state of frenzied oblivion.

Most of us actually value the help from God when we are in need, are desperate or when we get our cherished desires. We hardly thank God when everything seems to go wrong. Some of us feel it’s better to help someone in need than to thank God for gifts of livelihood. Some of us also use God as a mere exclamation as in, Holy Jesus! Christ Yikes!!

I feel the above statement is pretty safe and is pretty sorry too. But hold on, aren’t the holy books written by humans. Well so does history say! And history is lived by humans.

That way, we created God, but our creation is our now our creator. God lives in us. We live in God’s world. God is in I, and I am in God. Wondered why “I” is always capitalized?

Irrespective of whatever, there is a law of the land that is also created by us. So we need to follow the law of the land. Hence, we need to compromise our knowledge or control the extent we can grow our knowledge just for the sake of living in the land peacefully.

Therefore, I too, would rather uncompromisingly and to ensure peace to prevail in my "state of the mind world", believe there is God, irrespective of consequences, rather than following the converse belief.